Tired!

Feeling tired of teaching!

The enthusiasm of teaching seems completely disappeared within me!

Really feels tired, disappointed and lost in my career...I had really been struggling so hard to regain my interest in teaching in recent years, and trying every way to refresh my mind as well as to uplift my spirit but yet nothing seemed works!

As the school teachers, we teach and teach and teach, just to cover all the syllabuses of various subjects within limited time!

We teach and teach and teach, trying every way to collect tones of homework given back from the students!We teach and teach and teach, hoping that the students will pass or even ace their exam!

I could neither derive any happiness nor contentment from my job, and the most frustrating and depressing fact is I couldn't bring much happiness to the students throughout their learning process other than pushing them really much to have their work done as required and to achieve better result as expected.

In fact, teaching and learning shouldn't be like that, just to fulfill the result requirements and expectations of the school and the education department, but nothing concerns about developing the character, behavior, self-discipline, intelligence, mind and even wisdom of the students besides loading them with tones of homework...

May be it's time for me to review and to make some changes or adjustment either in my emotion or teaching career.... I should really change myself to adapt to the uncomfortable situation facing now, but not manipulated by the situation, right?!

Well, will keep working my way towards the reviving of the inspiration, spirit and vigor lost...
Good luck to me!

Regular Visitors

what on earth were they staring at??

Jookim, Zili and the other boys and girls of my 2001 class were here tonight. They had been gathering here every Lunar New Year since they left school. There used to be quite a big group of them, but the group seemed smaller this year 'cause some of them couldn't stay longer as they had some other things to attend to. I really appreciated their regular visit.

They talked among themselves about their school lives and their friends. Zili was always the focus among them, he used to bring them a lot of funny stories and he really was the bomb of laughter. Some boys were always quiet and timid like chunhow, mingyang, weixiang and chunfan, they used to sit quietly and uttered only a few sentences with the others.

All the boys and girls will be sitting for their SPM at the end of the year, they had always been doing very well in their study, may they succeed in their exams!

Visitors From The Year 1998 Class

2 girls and a boy of my 1998 class came visiting today. Xinyee and Peijin had been here last year but the boy with gold-dyed hair seemed strange to me. He claimed that he was one of the problem boys in the class, I could hardly remember such a problem boy but those boys that created discipline problems. He finally told me that he was Liu shunlong, another boy that had always been punished for not doing his work too. He is now a grown up and hardworking boy. He wished to take hotel management course if he can get a place in the university. The three of them are waiting for their STPM result to be released, good luck to them.

We had a really long chat. They told me lots of stories about their old classmates, especially the boys. None of them had gone bad though some of them didn't finish their study in secondary school. Those boys were once naughty but they were howsoever ignorant. I really care about their future, I hope that they will learn to earn their living in a proper way at the right path.

Then we went to have pizza for our lunch and we bid each other good bye after the lunch. May they pass their exam with flying colors.